if you don't know where you're going, how will you know if/when you've arrived?
The last three weeks or so have felt like an incubator and now I’m on the other side of it (ha here’s hoping), and it’s emphasised the importance and value of having clarity on what you want, don’t want, will stand for and won’t etc.
I’ve always been a deducer. eg. I know what I don’t want to do/don’t like and make a decision with the remaining options. I’ll choose one, experiment with it and if I don’t like it or it doesn’t work - all good, cross it off the list, let’s try another one… and I’ll keep deducing until I’ve found a good flow that works for me.
This approach is tricky though because, in my experience, you’re not too clear on what you actually want - you just know what you don’t want. So there’s clarity for what you wanna steer clear from,
but you don’t really know what the promised land looks, feels or sounds like…
So, how would I know if or when I arrived? Ha. Welcome to my dilemma of the last eight years or so… pull up a seat… I didn’t know what I wanted to do or who I wanted to be (other than a good person) after school, I didn’t know and still don’t know what purpose I want to serve, I don’t know why I’m here or why I was born. Wow, ok.. hmm it appears I don’t know a lot… haha auē, hika mā!
“You don’t need to see the whole path, just the next two steps,” as you might imagine lol this kind of whakaaro (perspective) resonates with me because while I may not be clear on the bigger picture, I believe what I’m doing now is what I’m meant to be doing - right now.
I’m unpacking more about myself, becoming more self-aware, by tracing the whakapapa of why I do what I do and why I don’t do what I should do (self-sabotage) so I can clear out the noise, the redundant, obsolete thinking and habits that make my vision for why I’m here, blurrier and harder to manifest. As I’m doing this and actively seeking out opportunities to learn, unlearn and grow,
I’ve found my vision for what/who I want to be start to become clearer as well.
I’m more intentional about my decisions and what I give energy to and what I don’t. I’m less tolerant of myself and of other energies that don’t contribute to me and my kaupapa (purpose, initiatives) positively or constructively.
Tāne was informed he had to climb to Tikitikiorangi (Uppermost Heaven), even though he didn’t know what was awaiting him, but he ascended nevertheless - and in doing so, he realised his potential. So yeah, clarity is super important, you need to know what you’re running to or running from - but perhaps the prerequisite to that, is self-awareness.
He aha ō koutou whakaaro? What do you reckon?