cycles, patterns and phases: Hinenuitepō & Hinetītama
Which means they all have a beginning too…
The end of one thing is the beginning of something else.. “mate atu he tētēkura, ka ara mai he tētēkura..” and the more I think about this, the more Hinenuitepō (atua of darkness, death) also being Hinetītama (dawn maiden) makes sense. Light and darkness, birth and death are one in the same, different expressions of the same energy. Different curves of the rauru, a spiral that continues expanding inward and outward simultaneously, instantaneously.
Understanding the relationship between Hinetītama and Hinenuitepō, or maybe scratch that let’s try again.. reflecting on our own lives and reliving a transition period of when we had to go to the darkest corners of our hearts and minds, and confront ourselves about what we’re up to, let go of what needs to be let go of, let die what must die — we’re embodying the same transition our tupuna went through.
We’re laying to rest parts of us, therefore also awakening/birthing something new from within.
They are the same. There is no death without life, life without death.
My pāpā passing away three and a half years ago was the death of his physical body and also the end of creating new memories with him — which still sucks because I’m selfish and want him here. but it’s part of the cycle, the pattern, the phase.. it was also the birth of connecting with him on a deeper level, spiritually and emotionally.
Even thinking this way is new-ish for me as I work through grief and learn more about what I have/haven’t dealt with. What was once dark, is now light.
“mai i te pō, ki te ao mārama”
From the darkness to the world of light. From death comes new life, hope and promise. Go through the phases, do the work, recognise the layers that must be shed, that must be put to rest and cleared away.. then watch as light and life flow in to take root and grow. As if connected to the darkness and death in some way, as if they were one in the same, different expressions of the same energy.
Different curves of the rauru, a spiral that continues expanding inward and outward simultaneously, instantaneously.
Ngā mihi,
Hana.