feeling what you need to feel, then let it go.

Hina’s come out of hiding, with that ‘out of new moon’ glow which means we’re onto our next kaupapa, our next theme and in the spirit of the #atuablogseries — our next atua (god, elemental force, deity) to cover. We’ve been discussing Rongo (atua of cultivation, peace, balance, āio) and my main learnings in these moments we’ve shared together is that peace is active, it’s dynamic, it’s constantly evolving.

It’s this thing we have to work at, foster and maintain.

In some spaces, it’s stillness and calm.  In others, it’s the harmony of many different energies syncing together and balancing each other out. And if we’re thinking about rongo as in to hear, feel and sense — the different expressions of āio, balance and peace align quite nicely.

So when it came to thinking of which atua to profile next, I left it open and let the flow of energies reveal one to me.  A series of events unfolded today which made me think Mahuika (atua of fire) would be a nice contrast to our current kaupapa and we’d be able to explore some interesting perspectives with her.

Long story short (keep an eye out for the vlog), people didn’t listen when we were out in the ngahere on assignment yesterday and they got lost. they were found about 90min later in one piece (physically) and we all eventually made it safely back to camp.

I (and probably most if not all of our crew) was overcome by a sense of anxiety and fear at the thought of what might have happened to our missing crew.

I pā mai te ihi me te wehi.

Were they ok, what were they thinking, how’d they get separated from the pack… there were sooo many questions and I had to constantly reinstate thoughts of āio to calm my mind and regulate the type of energy I was putting out. All the while, aware of the experience I was having and letting myself feel what I was feeling.

The reason Mahuika came to mind, and this is probably underdeveloped as so keen to see how my understanding will evolve over this cycle, but it was because I felt a wave of heat come over me when those scenarios played out in my head. I was a flame growing bigger and bigger, more reckless and uncontrolled as the thrill of the moment began to consume me. With Rongo and āio fresh on my mind (thanks to the blog and also Āio Clothing reaching its Kickstarter goal) I attuned myself to that gentle nature of the flame and kept it at bay.

So there’s our little kōrero, our story to transition from Rongo to Mahuika and set a foundation for whakaaro over this next moon cycle.

Tēnā tātou,

Hana.